As I was saying, there is a deep-seated mistrust for any person that might confess to doing prayer while alone.
The "controllers" (people that need to control the lives of others)of this world simply don't like the idea that some people make a point of being "alone"
The idea of "private meditations" is upsetting to the "controllers" of this would because they fear the lack of control and direction that they expect to be the only possible result of being apart from guidance.
Some times I test the people I'm with to see how they come down on this issue?
I will at some point in our conversation tell them, "I meditate a lot by myself , In fact I have a room in my house set aside for such use"
Some people, (not many but a few) tell me "Thats great, I wish I could do that"
However the more common response is one of suspicion, "Oh really?.........Why would a person want to do that?"
I think the suspicion is that without (their) guidance there is a real "danger" to the person that meditates while alone.
Its as if they think that right in the middle of a prayer the person may decide to start a Cult or something?
The more suspicious may go so far as to ask, "What do you think about when you meditate?"
My answers to such questions are always a bit disappointing to hear it seems.
My answers are so vague....But then they would have to be because my private meditations are, well rather "vague"...>LOL
Its not like every single time a person prays in the very same manner with the very same words every single time.
And in fact the warnings of Jesus are that we are not to do that type of repe***ion prayer .
But I think that what is most important for the Christian and the real reason I value and suggest private meditation is...."It's Private!"
When we are instructed by our Lord on how to do prayer, He tells us to go into our private room, and shut the door.
I think this is the most important part of the Lord's instructions.
He tells us to "shut the door' for a reason.
And that reason is that it allows the person to be free to be honest....
to shed the pretense of "performance prayer"
and for a brief moment just be who they truly are.....dull, boring, forgetful, etc....
You dont have to worry "What shall I think about when I meditate?"
You dont have to worry, "What shall be my prayer topic?"
You dont even have to worry "What words should i use to begin, what image should I have in my mind?"
The Lord already knows you fully, knows your needs, your faults, your heart.
You don't even have to worry that your mind is blank and you cant think of anything to even start with.
you don't have to worry about that because you have already done the most important part..."You shut the door"
Remember the reason to shut the door is not to keep the lord out, it's to keep the world around you out.
You are alone.
Even if you are actually surrounded by many other people, you yet have shut out the world and it's din....
Even if you are actually only alone in your own thoughts at the time....You are still alone.
The lord will help you with the other stuff...