And I'm better for it.
Based on what?I think in time you may very well decide to commit suicide.
No "true" Christian would so blatantly break the 9th commandment in front of his fellow Christians. tsk tskI know you've thought of it many times in the past and the idea will come along again in the future.
I'm no longer afraid of your fictional boogeyman.Satan is waiting for you to arrive.. Take your time, there's no rush..